Escapism

Today started out interesting enough. I woke up at 9:33 AM. I'd been asleep for 14 hours prior to that. Yeah, I know...strange. That's the second time this week I've had more than 8 hours of sleep, too. It's also the second time that I had more than 8 hours of sleep this week and was sleepy less than 12 hours into that day. If sleep were rain, my body would be in a drought, it would seem. Before I went to sleep yesterday afternoon, I'd discovered http://tv-links.co.uk/. It's like youtube, but with entire presentations instead of just clips (except for Shaun of the Dead--I actually saw the whole thing of that on youtube once). So you can watch TV shows, cartoons, movies, anime (not me, personally), music vids, and documentaries just by hopping on the site, clicking your viewing choice, and watching it. Yesterday, I watched an episode of Spaced, part of both Apocalypse Now and A Clockwork Orange, and the Simpsons movie. Spaced rocked. Can't wait to watch more. Then today, I watched an episode of Space: 1999 and the pilot of Freaks and Geeks. F&G was a pretty wicked show too. It's by that whole Judd Apatow crew. The same masterminds behind 40 Year-Old Virgin and Knocked Up. Gotta say, though...Knocked Up felt more like a full-blown F&G episode. It had more of the F&G crew, more of the tone of F&G, and it kinda felt like the F&G kids grown up--even though that would've meant the movie should've taken place in 1987, instead of 2007. Anyway, definitely will be checking out the rest of the other 17 episodes. It's funny because as I'm watching these great shows by people who've gone on to make movies since then, there are only like 1-2 seasons to watch. Freaks & Geeks, Spaced, Ali G. I mean what's the deal? Are the programming directors at the networks of the world just a bunch of retards? Monkeys would know better TV shows than those goons. Seriously. To think we've got karaoke shows on now when great shows like that have been on for barely a season. Yipes.

Really, though...it was nice escapism. Although I've been working on this post so long and doing other things in between that I forgot what I was bummed about. Probably girls, knowing me. Well, I take that back--I do remember. I'm actually really bummed about something. I'm bummed about being so doggone lonely. It's been over a year since I finished college and I still do not have a social life. I want some new friends! A new crew! A group of guys to go out with on the weekends--maybe, if I'm lucky, we could even go to church together. I mean I watched Superbad, I remembered Knocked Up, I watched Freaks and Geeks, and I've remembered my college days a lot today and all of it reminds me of how much fun it is to have brothers! Guys who are different but still way similar to you and see life in kind of the same way you do. The guys you coach and pat on the back everytime they land a date. The guys you root for when they go on the second and third dates. The guys you stay up late with, talking about the most random shit in the world. Lord, I want that again! I need that. I'm too young to die. I keep thinking I want a girlfriend. But I don't think I do. Well of course I do, but I think I can peacefully exist by having a g/f and no other serious friendships--that she'll be my one and only friend and that'll be enough. I don't think it is. I really do think I need more relationships in my life. Where the heck do I find them, though? Common Grounds? A new church? Go back to Asbury? Should I have talked to all those guys at the theater last night? I'm just so picky about my friends, though. I want to find Christian friends who like have solid values, convictions, devotions...but also don't have a Bible stuck up their butt. It's hard to tell if people are like that when you just see them out somewhere. They dress like you, they look innocent like you...are they like you? Hopefully they're not clones, but are they actually similar enough in the cool ways? This is a helluva spot to be in--I feel like I gotta date both guys and girls now. Sonofabitch.

Axe Without Action

Tonight, I went out on...something. It was probably more like hanging out as friends, but I think it actually qualifies as awkward. I'd gone out with the girl once before, I didn't really call her back after that until last week--which makes it about a year later. Last time, I thought things were going fine and there was some potential. We hang out tonight and...that's thrown out the window. She barely knew who Queen was. Yikes. Definitely don't think it would've worked out. Good thing she said she didn't want to date, too.

After the night was over--at about 8:15--I just drove out to the airport to process the whole thing. Really, I was pretty grateful I'd had the experience. However, it just left me cold on the romantic front. I do want someone to date. Someone I can share life with for a little bit--even if we don't get married. Obviously, it's not the right time, for that. After tonight, though, I definitely think I'm looking for someone who can "speak my language"--which is media. That includes art, music, movies, literature, theology, philosophy, and emotional/romantic attraction. Okay, so the last 3-4 aren't media. Deal with it. It's just more fulfilling and whole, it seems, when you can share a passion like creativity with someone. For me, creation is such an intimate, personal thing. Obviously, the gal I wind up with will probably do a little creating of the babymaking kind with me, but it'd be way cool if the two of us could just like put our minds together and create some uber-great art. That is what I'm looking for in a woman.