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A few weeks ago, I went to a new church that's pretty much in my backyard. Well, it would be in my backyard if there was a closer way to get there. Presently, nonesuch a route exists, as illustrated on the left:
Wonderful, isn't it? I have to turn a regular 3-minute drive into a 15-minute one because the lazy-ass city won't pave a 50-yard road.
Anyway, about the group itself. Lots of cool people there that I'd like to get to know better, but it's not really a place where I can grow as Dan Ball. I can grow as a Christian there fine--which is something I need to do now. However, I went there expecting/hoping to find a group of 20somethings that were into culture and art as much as me and my friends were in college, but I don't know that anyone there is into that. Nobody's just starting out in life, wanting to make a difference through art. They're all about 5 years older than me, they've settled into life, and they are into other things like sports, guns, weddings, and culture is like on the very back row in the van.
With that said, I still feel like a lot is lacking in my life. I've found a good place to grow spiritually, but as far as having close friends--brothers in arms--I'm still searching, I think. I don't want to settle into the kind of life a lot of them live. It's all so...mundane to me. I hope they're happy with it, though. It'd be really nice to find an artistic community that shares a faith in God and love of culture--art, music, film, photography, literature, history, philosophy. People who are still in college even though they graduated a long time ago. WHERE can I find that? Do I really need to move to Georgia to live with guys that I know share those values/dreams with me? The guys that helped me conceive that lifestyle?
All I know is that I'm feeling more and more like Northeast really isn't satisfying all my needs in life right now. I don't know whether it can or is supposed to, but when I think about going there and hanging out with the people who attend there...there seems to be something missing.
Shit, it's taking a long time to find my place in the world.
Wonderful, isn't it? I have to turn a regular 3-minute drive into a 15-minute one because the lazy-ass city won't pave a 50-yard road.
Anyway, about the group itself. Lots of cool people there that I'd like to get to know better, but it's not really a place where I can grow as Dan Ball. I can grow as a Christian there fine--which is something I need to do now. However, I went there expecting/hoping to find a group of 20somethings that were into culture and art as much as me and my friends were in college, but I don't know that anyone there is into that. Nobody's just starting out in life, wanting to make a difference through art. They're all about 5 years older than me, they've settled into life, and they are into other things like sports, guns, weddings, and culture is like on the very back row in the van.
With that said, I still feel like a lot is lacking in my life. I've found a good place to grow spiritually, but as far as having close friends--brothers in arms--I'm still searching, I think. I don't want to settle into the kind of life a lot of them live. It's all so...mundane to me. I hope they're happy with it, though. It'd be really nice to find an artistic community that shares a faith in God and love of culture--art, music, film, photography, literature, history, philosophy. People who are still in college even though they graduated a long time ago. WHERE can I find that? Do I really need to move to Georgia to live with guys that I know share those values/dreams with me? The guys that helped me conceive that lifestyle?
All I know is that I'm feeling more and more like Northeast really isn't satisfying all my needs in life right now. I don't know whether it can or is supposed to, but when I think about going there and hanging out with the people who attend there...there seems to be something missing.
Shit, it's taking a long time to find my place in the world.
posted by Dan Ball @ 8:05 AM
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